Built up post: Christmas, Birthday, New Years

OKAY. Yeah, this might be long, 'cause I gotta say something about the many festivities that have been going on the past few days....

First off Christmas and my birthday (sorta interrelated). Well, when I went Christmas shopping I spent A LOT of money. A LOT. Nearly half my savings (which i dug into for Christmas)... gone in a day of shopping. ._. It was fun, but tiring as SHIT as well. But yeah. I spent so much money, but I felt alright about it. I was thinking that it's going to my friends anyways, so it's all good. But at the end of the day I was just like "Wow shit. I have no money left." So I thought that I'll just make it back up from work/CNY and stuff... The giving part of it was fun; thinking of present ideas, looking around, shopping around, buying the stuff for other people. It feels good. After my birthday, I realized that God provides and the giving is all worth it. In terms of finances, I got back all the money I spent on friend's on my birthday. This isn't in terms of presents, but as in cold, hard cash. If you add in the monetary value of the presents I received, its at LEAST threefold of what I spent. In terms of VALUE of the presents, I'm lost for words at how amazing they are. The time and effort and sentimental value *ahemcocoabutterahem* of each one means a lot to me, so THANK YOU GUYS. (I'm still going spaz on FREAKING BILLY ELLIOT TICKETS?!?!?!? WAHSHIT.) Thank you so much guys, for making my (two days early) birthday, such an awesome day that I could spend with friends. Time and time again, I thank God for each and every one of you. =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Welcome '09! Cast out the old and ring in the new!

Well, this year started pretty boring... I was playing DS when it was 12:00. xD And I spent today lazing around watching Friends (SEASON 10, WHICH I GOT FOR MY BDAY AND HAVEN'T SEEN!!! RAAAAAAAAAWRGH!!! Thanks again.)

Okay, my New Year's Resolutions are:

1) STUDY LIKE SHIT. Be really really prepared and consistent with work. GOOD consistent.

2) Lose WEIGHT. Again. xD At least... 10kg?

3) Lower my phone bills! >.<;;

4) Vlog/blog more! =DD

Okay. Theres a few more, but I can't think of em right now. But yeah. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Anonymous blogging?

Okay, first off, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. =)

Yarr. Well, I was thinking of starting an anonymous blog with fictional names and no names of places and stuff, because that way I can be ENTIRELY honest. Not that I'm NOT honest here, but it's just that I can be MORE honest and more open about anything and everything. Like I could talk about taboo topics here, but it would be awkward.

But on the other hand, if I make an anonymous blog, then what is holding me to what is TRUE. It's ironic that I want to make a blog to become TRUER, but isn't being more open than I actually am not true? (Sorta bad example...) Or what if I take it as an opportunity to be who I'm not; to be something or someone I want to be rather than the true person that I am.

The only way to stop that from happening is having something/someone to keep me accountable. But then I don't want just anyone to know that it's my blog. So I need to really think about it, if I want to start that blog.

I want to write that blog, because I guess it'll help me find me better. I've defined myself in a certain way already, but to express myself in the way I want to be expressed, I guess, is difficult. Not that I'm not happy to be who I am, I've gotten passed that stage and I think in the sense of self-acceptance and further development of self-discovery and identity, the blog would help. The problem is people I consider FRIENDs may not be as accepting of me. It's complicated. I know theres most of my friends (people who read this blog included) are pretty supportive and all. =)

The big question is: would you judge me differently if you knew more about me?

The answer to that is YES, unless you're in denial. For example, if you knew about my family relationships and family history, if you knew about my friends in other schools, if you knew about MY history, if you knew about what side I take on issues of society... you would think of me differently, whether it be worse or better. But nonetheless, DIFFERENTLY. That's what I don't think I can face. Call me a coward, but I think it would be really hard to face friends who would so easily change their views of you if they found out that you hated Asians or love neopets (neither of which I do).

Yes. My SoT (Splurge of thought). =)

NEXT POST TOPIC: New Year's Resolutions!! Maybe...

God, faith, friends and parents (oh and explanation to blog title!)

Okay, I'll try and type up the stuff which disappeared the other day. Why I said I might be writing with the wrong motivation was because I was feeling bleh about some stuff, and I guess I was writing that because I was just being moody. Now I'll write it, but with less of a/an bias/emotional attachment.

I seemed to have spark a little argument in my last post about the big three letter word. GOD. To me, God exists. To Lydia, maybe not, but I love her all the same =P That reminds me of something I was thinking about this morning.... I kept thinking the lines "Hate the sin, love the sinner." This isn't saying that I hate Lydia (No, no, you are far too lovely, my bubblicious puppycakes =P). But it was just a random thought I had today. It's strange how so many people have lost sight of love, but instead would rather pick up loathing and hatred towards people who *ahem* "sin". But seeing that EVERYONE sins... hypocrites!

Spiritually, I feel like I'm pretty... "small". I don't have much faith, I have my doubts, circumstances keep me on the fence for many things. And this is weird, because I'm supposed to be a leader of Students Alive, the Christian group at my school. Unknown to me, however, was that other people knew that I'm a leader of SA. I found this out when I was sitting in the library with Josh Wong and two of his friends, and his friends (A and B) were talking amongst themselves. There conversation went something like:

A: I haven't really been praying recent, I don't know whether I'm praying right or something, but I don't feel like I'm talking to God...

B: Oh... well... why don't you ask Johnmah?

This was a shock to me. I'm no spiritual counsellor or pastor or anything like that. I, in no way, have my Bible knowledge downpat, let alone my faith in the Bible err... "intact". I have my own struggles with my faith. From another perspective, EVERYONE has struggles with their faith, even pastors and stuff. I recently sorta 'went back to basics' if that makes sense, because I basically just tried to take away any human bias' from mind and look through arguments for and against certain issues and then make my own mind up. It's like clearing a slate and filling it back up, but organizing it.

I've talked to people about the Christian faith and all... and someone made a really good point, in that we have split the religion Christianity into two parts: Church and Christianity. The difference is that Church has rules and regulations to govern it's people in order to maintain face value. I reckon, anyways. For example, they can't keep a pastor who rapes little children a pastor, as not only will the public rage, but the congregation won't be very trusting. So the Church will make the decision to demote them and help them um... "normalize". >.<;; (For lack of a better word)

Christianity, on the other hand, is a living faith of living a righteous and morally right lifestyle. This involves loving sinners, despite their sins. A lot of the time, we don't see how many people get hurt just because we follow Church rather than Christianity and it's just so saddening to see that too often people turn away God because of it.

On a more happier note, I'm so grateful for my friends and family. The other day, I just realize how much I rely on a few of my really close friends. Lidders, despite you're anti-God, anti-religious, atheistic views and all... without you, I wouldn't have accepted myself as the way I am. I've realized that I'm not that bright a student in academics, but maybe I'm just not meant to be. And because of the "mentality" that you have helped build in me, I accept that maybe I would do better in other areas other than academics. That was a weird/bad example, but thank you. =)

Seaweedgirl, zomgosh. Freaking. Without YOU! GEEZ. Seeing as you are the only one of my reallllly close friends to live actually IN THE SAME COUNTRY, I swear I could not live without you. I'm so glad we have "mutual understandings" on so many different levels. XD Thank you for being my shoulder to lean on, rock I stand upon and, most of all, net to catch me when I'm down. =D

JMee, yes indeed after all these years, we can STILL talk about anything and everything. You better be in Singapore when I get there.... or else I might just have to kill you. =P Btw, don't stress too much, and if you ever needa talk, you know how to find me, or just pop me an email =) I'm always willing to listen/read.

=) Love you guys all to death.

Raargh! I'm so grateful that my mom is so accepting of my marks and stuff. I don't know whether that makes me complacent, because shes so accepting of my marks and all... but yeah. I love her for that. I just hope and pray that she will accept me and support me, no matter the choices I make in life, through the mistakes I make in life and just the way I eventually turn out. As with the rest of my family.

Oh, I also wanted to talk about my blog name and why it's called imperfectlyfound.

It has two meanings: "imperfectly found" and "I'm perfectly found".

This basically means that I am found imperfect, but the act of being FOUND was perfect. Although it may seem like the second one means that I'm perfect, but that would be "I'm found perfect" and the use of "perfectly" is an adverb describing "found" and thus the act of being found was perfect. If that makes sene at all. Haha.

-jmah-

[EDIT: Oh, just 'cause I don't name other people, doesn't mean I don't <3 them too. I <3 most of you all anyways. =) These guys are just "speshol"er. See how I wrote that? ER! That means you all are speshol too. =P]

Birthday wishes...

Don't really have any, actually. And its not even that close to my birthday yet! XD CHRISTMAS IS AROUND THE CORNER! (CRAP! Christmas shopping. >.<)

But it's sorta related to my blogging. Cause I really wanna do vlogs, and don't wanna type as much, so I asked a friend to get me a webcam for my birthday. First time in a long time, if ever, I reckon, that I've asked someone who's not family to get me something. xD Cause according to my parents I've already used my birthday AND Christmas gifts. Hahaha, oh well.

Honestly, apart from a webcam, there's not much else I want. Wait. I just lied. There's a lot I want. But nothing purchasable by cash, efpos, or even MASTERCARD.

I've been swimming more recently, and I feel good about that. But I'm not losing any weight, damnit. >.<

Oh, ok VCE results. (Ugh! I have alot to write about, already know what I'm gonna write for next paragraph! XDD) I didn't do great. For Japanese, I got okay, but then I found out I got rejected by my principal to do University Japanese. I got a bit cut, but (above paragraph) prayed about it and then realized that maybe this is what God planned, cause He wants me to focus on all my other subjects and all (OH! ANOTHER PARAGRAPH IDEA! PHYSICAL MENTAL NOTE: PSYCHOLOGY!). Hmm. Chinese I failed. If I did second language, I might have done alright, but I didn't. *shrugs* Already stop caring! XD Not in a bad way, but like. It just passed me by, and now its over. So now what?

OH CRAP. I forgot my idea when I wrote that first bracketed sentence in the previous paragraph. Damnit. Maybe it was something about how everyone went VCE crazy and stuff. *shrugs* But psychology. Okay, this is a really REALLY weird story, but I'll tell you guys anyways. So this is how it all went down............. I was just at school and after a period of singing or something, my name was called out to see Mr. Sloan the daily organizer and subject coordinator or something. This was regarding my subjects, because the subjects I put down were: ENGLISH ENGLISH LANGUAGE ----> (IF NOT, THEN JAPANESE)
MATH METHODS
CHEMISTRY
ART

So I went to see him and because Eng Lang isn't running, I changed to Japanese, but I had a funny feeling. I was thinking "Why should I do it again? It's fun and all, but is it WORTH it? What if I do well in it? Then theres no point! Or what if I don't get into Uni Jap? Then what is gonna motivate me to do REALLY well?" As it turns out, didn't do great and didn't get into University Japanese. *shrugs* ANYWAYS, on with the story.

So I was talking with friends, and a good friend of mine was like "DO PSYCH!" and that got me thinking.... "Maybe I should do Psych... I've already done Unit 1.... so....it cant be too hard, yeah? and its more worth it than doing Japanese again" So I went to Sloan again, and asked to be changed to Psych, and he said that someone just pulled out of it and there was ONE spot left. AND ONLY ONE SPOT. (Thank God!) And so, being the opportunist that I am, I jumped at it and said I'll take it. I reasoned out that it would be easier to jump into Japanese, than jump into Psych if it's THAT full. So I got the place! Whoot!

Later that day, I was looking around school for lingering year 12s trying to sell books, but no one had Psych... depressing!!! And then the first call I made was to this pretty awesome guy SLo and.... he didn't pick up. BUT! Later on he called me back and told me that he still had his Psych books! Btw, by this point, I've virtually bought ALL my books already, and because Psych was so last minute, I had to start scavenging for books. So he had books! YAY!

Right after I closed the deal with SLo, Josh came up to me and was like "DOES HE HAVE METHODS BOOKS?!??! AND ENGLISH BOOKS?!" or something like that. So I called SLo again and ask him, and he said that he has NO BOOKS LEFT! He only has Psych books left. WHAT ARE THE CHANCES?! (THANK GOD AGAIN!)

All this was already pretty mindboggling. When I brought it up with another friend, he was like "You could just be overthinking it" and yes, I usually overthink. So I dwindled down about it. Tried not to think about it so much.

AND THEN! A few days later or something, I'm with Josh again and we are talking, I decide to tell him about it. All I said was like "You know, with the whole Psychology deal..." and he was like "God did it." IS THIS OBVIOUS CONFIRMATION OR WHAT?! (THANK GOD AGAIN AGAIN!)

Yeah, so thats the story.

BUT OMGOSH. I looked back at the post, and I realized, SOMEHOW one of the paragraphs disappeared. DAMNIT. Aw crap, it was TWO paragraphs (pretty damn long ones at that!)! Or at least TWO MAIN IDEAS! DAMN! Maybe it means I shouldn't write about it.... Hm.. I'll jot the thoughts down, and I'll write about it again some other time, maybe, if I feel its right. (It didn't feel right when I wrote it the first time. Probably wrong motivation. But I might write about it. In due time.)
Idea1: Friends (Lidders, Seaweedgirl, Jmee)
Idea2: God and prayer

I'm out for the night.

-jmah-

Nathan's "PURTY AWESOME" Christmas Party

It was "purty awesome".

By the way, I'm very dead at the moment, so this post will be short. VERY SHORT.

By the by, I love your farm, Nathan. LURVE IT. Oh and of course you too, but that's just different. =P Oh and I love your cows. HEHE.

<3

Friends, the future and what it may hold...

This is extremely impromptu, but I'm gonna blog about some of my future plans and some of the decision-making factors involved as well as my reasons.

As some of you would know, I plan to do some sort of health science degree, ultimately medicine, but I really don't know (By the by, I say that way too much). Since around year 8 I've wanted to become a doctor, but then as I thought about it over the years I was trying to figure out a few things. First of all, why do I want to be a doctor? Second, am I even cut out to be a doctor?

So I'm still in that in-between, but I reckon that I would enjoy medicine... it's interesting and would be fun. I also like being able to help people, but that answer/reason is too much of a damn cliché. I don't know whether TV is an influence on my decision. Just putting it out there, but I absolutely love Grey's as well as House. But when I watch the shows I like the organization more than anything. I guess I love that in any field... I love the break down of structures like a hospital or a military office. Who knows, maybe I should do something in management or organization.

I did work experience with a surgeon and I got to see a surgery first hand. I guess that didn't really phase me. The smell is horrid, but I survived. I even ate right after. But like, do I really want to cut people up and stick metal objects into them? I don't know (there I go again), maybe I do. But I've never really done it, so I can't say yet. That's where I am. So I wanna try it. Medicine, I mean. I don't know about any other choice.

Oh, except languages. I love languages and cultures and people. I would love to become an interpreter, but I can do that anyways even if I did medicine. OH! And that's another thing. I think I have this inbuilt thing that makes me want to do MORE MORE MORE! For example, double degrees, honours, concurrent diplomas, etc etc. Notice all of these are 'accreditation for acheivement'. What do they really mean? How much do they mean to me? I hope not THAT much. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">UNI
Columbia
Monash
UNSW

COURSE
Med/Arts
Emergency Health/Nursing
Physiotherapy
Medicine
Arts

With the universities, it's strange, 'cause 2 out of 3 of them are NOT in Melbourne. Which means I would have to move. I have a 1/3 chance of staying in Melbourne, assuming that I go to only one of the three. And if I go to Monash, my first course preference that Monash offers is Emergency Health/Nursing (note again that this is a double degree??)

So what's with all the possible moving? Well, I don't think I'm too bad with the moving part. But it's the friends that I leave behind. Mostly my church here. It's something that I don't want to lose, and I'm afraid, despite all the promises of reunion and whatnot, that I'll lose what I have if I leave. I've been through moves before and I understand that people MOVE ON, but thats the thing. Do I want to move on in my own direction? Or do I want to keep these friends? It's not so much a toss up of WHICH, but it's just that it's very hard to keep both.

What does Columbia have in store for me? Two of my closest friends are trying to get into Columbia, and I think it would be freaking awesome if I managed to scrape in with them. And these are friends I haven't seen for a long time. These friends made such a big impact on my life, even though we are such different people, if it weren't for them, I think I would seriously be a very torn, broken, confused (more so than now) person. But that's a story for another time.

UNSW? All it has is a dream-come-true degree! Medicine/Arts?! That means possibility for language studies and exchanges DURING a medicine degree! Awesome or what? Downside: I have to move. I have to get in. Ouch.

Okay, I can't really be bothered writing much else at the moment. Not in a very good mood, and I don't really know why. My brother threw my cat on me and I punched him. I think it's just 'cause it's him that pisses me off.

-jmah-

Insensitivity/Birthdays/Chain?

Okay, three things I just wanna mention. Don't want to talk about it in detail or anything, cause like... I GOTTA GO TO SLEEP.

1. Insensitivity... I hate it when people are so insensitive and inconsiderate of others. One example is of Person A who made a stupid comment when I was with some friends playing singstar. Basically when one of my friends (Person B) was playing (who is relatively tone deaf, and admits to it himself), Person A said something along the lines of "OMGOSH. YOU'RE BUTCHERING THE SONG. YOU IN PARTICULAR." >.< How tight is that? Okay, some background though. Like my opinion on the friend (Person B) was that it was good that he actually took the step to sing, 'cause I saw how hesitant he was before and that he actually wanted to sing. So it was good! And even before he sang he was saying how he's tone deaf and what not. I felt so bad for him after Person A said that comment and after that Person B didn't sing again. Okay, ANOTHER little thing to factor in though is, SUPPOSEDLY, Person A has this thing called Asperger's Syndrome which is related to autism, but is classified by the "difficulty to interact socially" and have "limited empathy for their peers". But does it give them a RIGHT to say what they said? I don't think so.

2.Birthdays. Are. Everywhere. Yay?

3. OKAY! ANOTHER WEIRD COMMENT. This is like the sequel to "Two Guys. One Purse.".... and it's "My lock doesn't fit around your chain..." XD I don't know whats with me and Nathan... but I think it just happens. Hahaha....

Off to bed.

POST.END.

2 Guys 1 Purse

@_@ Scary topic, much? Not really a serious post, but...

Well... As you probably all know of or heard of that infamous video. I actually don't know much about it except a general idea. >.<

But yeah... Random title, but its 'cause me and Nathan were shopping for stuffers and then I bought a present for a friend which was a purse (or wallet, whatever) and I made a comment on how it's weird that us, two guys, are shopping for one purse. ._. Weiiird!!! But fuuunny. *shudder*

Okay. Tonight/early tomorrow morning I'm camping outside Billy Hyde, cause they have their annual Doorbuster Sale.... Hehehe. Gonna be fun, but so dead tomorrow. My first way to END EXAMS. WHOOT. I'm doing it with a friend who I did it with last year as well, so like... we've made it tradition! Whoot!

Short post. Sorry, can't really be stuffed at the moment. And I wanna try to sleep up, before the camp out.

Friend Collage

I have an idea....

Have had an idea for a while...

Basically the idea is to get a picture of all my friends (friends close enough that I can write something about, and have impacted my life in some way, small or big) and then have a wall full of the portraits. But now, I've changed my idea. Now I want to make it a book. I'll put one photo of each person (hopefully they'll let me take a photo of them, but if they are overseas atm... then I guess not) and then I'll paste the picture in and then I'll write about them. Like all over the page. Just my thoughts about them and the reason why they are in my book. But as I am the BIGGEST PROCRASTINATOR EVAAAR... Don't expect it to happen any time soon. But I wanna do it.

Yeah. End.

BTW, freaking Japanese exam shucked the shits. Yeah. Don't feel good about it. But I'm just glad its over. And now I have another reason to do it next year... BUT NOW I HAVE TO STUDY FOR FREAKING CHINESE. CBS. Today I was supposed to go through Chinese stuff and organize my good essays and crap, but all I've done is like... partially clean my room (note the word PARTIALLY... because now its worse than it was before. It's just my way of cleaning. It goes from "messy" to "messier" to "clean"....) and... make food and crap. Not too much. *shrugs*

Oh well. STUDY CLEAN STUDY!

3/4 Exams. Oh. Shit.

Yes. Oh shit.

Well, I'm telling myself I'll start studying at 1:30 and it is currently 1:26 so this might be a rushed blog post. Well, today was the last day of Chinese school... *wipes tear*.... *CELEBRATE!* but freaking exam on Thursday. What a bummer. But I'm going back to Chinese school next week to be a...representative for the school on our open day. So come along, maybe get some free stuff and talk to people like me. =)

Yeah, it was fun. We had one period of class and then 3 periods of party. And food. And speeches and performances and stuff. I would post pictures, but later, cause I only have 2 minutes left. I had to make a speech... but since my Chinese is really crap I did in in English. Hehe... And it was nerve-wrecking. But whatever...

It's funny that people don't even know people's names cause the teacher always uses Chinese names and stuff. It's funny. We (or maybe just me?) learnt each others names and all. Hehe.

Okay, I'm over time, but thats cause my dad called from China and stole 2 minutes. Which I'm very happy to give, but then I take 2 minutes back. So till 1:33. Posting in one minute! AHHH! NOW!

*ragequit*

Blogs about me!

Tonight was cool. Two really cool people wrote really cool posts about me.

http://swirlsofcolour.blogspot.com/

and the other one is a private blog so you wouldn't be able to read it anyways.

SO MY TURN TO BLOG ABOUT THEM!

Okay.

VAN = my jie.



haha. Shes cool and artsy and musicy. Shes fun to hang with, although she always ALWAYS bullies me. =P

I'll do what she did:

VAN CHO
Feman, womale
Hongkee
LIVES IN FAR FAR FAR AWAY.
Christian
goes to DSC (my old school)

she goes to my youth! LINC!!!!

shes FLEXIBLE. and can do a leap really well, she taught me. but now that im too fat i dont go very high. xD oh and she can do a cartwheel, which i would kill something if i did.

she started blogging with me, although my blog died. xD ish.

she plays mahjong and speaks canto (a-duuh! shes hongkee!)

she wants to work at officeworks.

she does 3/4 music and 1/2 graphics. see? artsy muso? Exactly.

she sings for worship ;)

she <3s hk dramas more than me. xD

MOST OF ALL.... shes my jie. =) and i didnt forget her bday. her mom makes super hotpot. =) and shes TBTBTBTBTBTBTBTB!!!!!!! You see how we're related?

Thanks, jie.

NATHAN YII



He is the most very much more greatest.... LOSER IN THE WORLD! HE COMPARED ME TO A MONKEY!

...

WHEN I'M A FREAKING SHEEEEEP!!! *goes and cries*

hahah. Nah, he is the awesome. He too is artsy! and musicy! he be my VCE Art partner friend person next year! and hes gonna conduct COMO HOUSE MOOOZEK! =O LYK ZOMGOSH. gonna be shitloads of fun. =D

'than Y. goes to my school. and he's cool. and not a fool. and no tool. cause hes too cool. so drool. cause hes just THAT cool.

He really encouraged me at the LinC camp, and for that he is eternally cool and awesome. Do I need to expand my vocab? I THINK NOT.

His drawings is the shiz, ya know? Do you know why? Well I think its because he has a good eye. Thats why he notices my ninja wagging skillz!!! HE HACKS! *ragequit*

Heheh, thanks for being cool.



=) i<3BLOGBUDDIES!

Exam time?

Rargh!

Okay, yeah I make videos, but I really cannot be bothered uploading and stuff. So maybe after exams or something. I've had two oral exams and stuff with school. Ugh.

Year 11 exams are coming up and 2 year 12 exams which are gonna KILL MEEEE.

Well about this blog, I had this book/diary thing where I wrote down ideas and stuff, but then I think I lost it so I'm not too sure what I'ma do now... *sigh* I'll look for it and see if I can keep it going, cause I really liked that notebookthing.

Today, don't got school cause its like a curriculum day or whatever, so that we get a 5 day weekend! WHOOT!

Trial Chinese exam tomorrow and LINC!!! Yay. Yeah.

Okay. I'll post more um... worth reading posts later. But just decided to post whatever for now.

Long time no freaking post.

Wah. Okay, I HAVE VIDEOS! Just no time to upload and stuff. ugh. But yeah, I wanna keep this alive.

I have a sorta to-do list for after exams:

1/ KICK THIS BLOG BACK UP. damnit.
2/ Start devo discussion
3/ Do homework
4/ Pass VCE
5/ Make more videos
6/ Think of more things to put on this list.
7/ Reply to the facebook msgs from like...a quarter of a year ago. >.<

Okay. List over.

Anyways, no video today, cause I'm calling in a 'sickie' and not going to school because of my exam in um... around a week and four hours. Yes. I'm so damn screwed. But OH WELL.

Youtube has been sucking my life up. Uuugh. I've found some vloggers who i really admire... =)

i<3

Yay.

Ahh. Okay things to blog about next time. Since this is a half-blog. >.>

1/ Beach
2/ LinC
3/ Um. whatever else. >.>

I like lists.... =)

OMOGSH! WORK PLACEMENT! Thats a major one. I'll blog again later...

but till then...

peeeace

REAL VLOG 3.

Oh geez. Okay, I sorta promised myself that this blog won't be used for bitching, but THIS really calls for some time to bitch. You must understand. Read on at your own risk.

My. Mentally-incapable. Brother. Freaking. Shaved. My. Cat...

Again.

Is he a retard? Rhetorical.

Does he not realize that the cat is OURS, not HIS? And that I have a say in what happens to the cat?! Oh wait, I forgot. He is incapable of actually being considerate of what anyone else thinks. UGH.

Oh, not to mention HE PROBABLY DID IT HIMSELF! DO YOU THINK I TRUST HIM TO DO IT IF I WANTED IT DONE AT ALL?!

Bitch over.

Okay. To other matters.

Still pissed, but I'll... let it simmer over.

There was some Monash dudes who came to MHS to talk about their faculties and I went to the Med/Health Sciences and Pharmacy. From it, I actually started considering nursing as a pathway into Medicine. And it also gives me time to study my languages. Yay. Hm.

I went swimming today, 90 laps. Yay. Hm.

Still pissed.

I'm sorry, I just cannot get over the cat. I MUST put a photo up to show you WHAT MY BROTHER HAS DONE.





























I cannot believe that I am related to that thing... My brother, I mean, not the cat. I still <3 my cat. Although MY BROTHER FREAKING SHAVED HER! It's like my brother has a vanity-driven eating disorder...FOR MY CAT. WHAT. THE. EFF. IS WRONG WITH HIM? People, PLEASE TELL HIM TO STOP. Please ANYONE. Anyone who knows him. PLEASE.

Oh yeah, and this is a Vlog about some late night thoughts.

Ugh.

VLOG 3

rawr. Okay.

Haven't been on for a while, cause been busy and crap and crap and more crap.

No excuses.

Well! Okay. It's holidays at the moment. It has been for the past two weeks-ish. So yeah. Updateish.

LinC camp. good fun. don't really want to go into it right now, so blah.
Over the hols, didnt do too much, but I had planned to do so much work and bleh. I died out. So tomorrow I'm spending the WHOLE day studying. I have nothing on so I can study. But I do have to apologize to some people about me keeping that day entirely empty. Sorry!

School starts on Monday. Ugh.

Okay, something that has been on my mind recently. Well, yesterday I had this thing at school which I had to go to. It was for Japanese. I got up and planned to catch the 8:54, but then I couldn't be bothered. So I tried for the 9:09, but decided to actually eat my breakfast. So I had to catch the 9:31 or something. That's what I THOUGHT I had caught anyways.

In fact, I caught the 304 to the city. Ugh. I don't know. I didn't even LOOK at the bus number, I just hopped on and sat there. I noticed something was wrong by the time the bus turned onto the freeway, but it didn't hit me until I was minutes away from the city. I CAUGHT THE 304! Ah shit. Oh well. Didn't freak out too much. AND THEN! My phone gave me a shock. It like...crashed or something. Went entirely blank and I couldn't open anything. It was like...frozen and black. I took the battery out and then replaced it and started up and all was good. Whew.

I got off near MC and then took a train back to South Yarra. I went to the Japanese thing, which I feel was a complete waste of time. Except maybe that Fujino gave us some pretty good resources. It was planned to be 10AM-3PM, but then he was feeling sick. And most of us haven't finished our detailed studies. So he reorganized to finish at 1PM.... BUT! He couldn't be stuffed teaching/guiding conversation so he let us off at 12:20? Yeah. I met up with a friend of mine and just walked around for a bit. Then I headed home.

BUT! I decided to stop by and see my mom. It was all good until I was leaving my mom's office and making my way home again. I took a CITY train instead of a Belgrave/Lilydale train.... UGH! I only realized when I hit Richmond again. SO FRUSTRATING. And then I had to wait some time for a Belgrave/Lilydale to get back home. *sigh* how depressing, eh? Well, to make it worse, I decided to think. Yes, I have to consciously decide to think when I wish to think. No, not really, but I thought. And I believe that was bad. It made me conscious of some things.

I realized that I've been rather bitchy recently. And quite pissy. Also, I've been very big headed about myself. That really pissed me off. Hmm. I was just sort of reflecting on the previous days and it really bugged me how self-centered I've been. And also just been stupid. So many stupid things I've done. For example, things I've said some really stupid things and stuff. Ugh. I dunno. I just wanna apologize to the friends I've been around recently, 'cause it's really annoying me how I've been acting. Sorry.

It got a little bit better, my day I mean, because I met up with some friends after they went ice skating and we went to Box Hill and just bummed. That was alright. =)

Okay. That was the main thing I wanted to blog about. It just pissed me off.

That night I spent with a good friend of mine, who made me feel a whole lots better, even if she didn't realize it. When I was watching Kungfu Panda with her, I just sorta forgot about what I was thinking about during the day. =) Thanks.

Today, I had my Big W induction. Which was a total bore. Didn't do much apart from watch DVDs and fill out forms and listen to people talk about stuff. Oh and filling out worksheets. For 7 hours? Ahh, the good side is that I get PAID FOR IT. YES! =)

I got my phone bill today, which I was really worried about, but luckily, I didn't go over my cap. I was maybe 100 bucks off. So I'm all good, and can spend more. =)

Okay. Yeah. I don't know whether anyone really bothers reading this crap, 'cause its mostly venting about myself. But thanks for bearing it through if you got through this far.

OH! OH!!! And I made a Vlog, but its really embarrassing and is for just one person. So I'm not gonna put it up. Haha. I look like a retard and its very similar to the others. =) So you're not missing out on much. Hehe.

Sorry about no LinC Camp Vlog, but I really couldn't be stuffed.

Anyways, I think I've written enough.

Stay cool and in school.

._.;;

Potato-man

NOTE: I was a fat-ass kid when I was younger. Not that I'm not fat now, but I was FAT-AS. Seriously. I was looking through old photos and MAN WAS I FAT. ._.;; Eeeh....

Second Vlog - SYG!

Okay. I got back from SYG which was a BASH! and now I gotta get stuck into exams. ugh.



Theres the video of....blah! Haha. hope you enjoy.

SYG is pretty awesome. Although i didnt really play any sports apart from swimming (which...i wont really count, because i failed miserably), i still got really hyped about everything. it was good fun. almost lost my voice. but i feel it slowing coming back =D Yay! Yeah... it was exciting! Especially the dodgeball competition! That was really... bleh! We got SOOO CLOSE! aaah well. It was still all good fun. =]

Thanks guys who went for making it what it was. =D Thank you all! Also for the nights....of good food, camp fire hanging and mafia. And my tentmates...although i didnt spend much time there...apart from sleeping that is. And... just everyone who went.

Anywho... now its time to get back to life. *sigh* =P

OH YEAH! BTW.... this video took freaking ages to make. Basically all of this morning until now ish...which is 4:42 PM. And you STILL have to wait for it to process... oh well. What can you do with slow internet? *shrugs*

VERY FIRST VLOG EVER!

wow. this was weird. but i'll put it up ANYWAYS. so here it is. my very first vlog. which took me...20 tries or so...and then comp kept crashing when i tried downloading it from the camera... ugh. so here. enjoy my nervousness. =\


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yeah. my bag. yay. um... *walks off* anyways its WAY past my bedtime cause i gotta get up at 6AM! AARGH! or earlier. and um... NOT EVERYTHING FIT! i'm cutting down. *sigh*

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