Not. Again.

I sorta hit something today.

It made me turn to God and ask WHY?

But... it also made me appreciate everything just a little bit more.

It also reminded me that it is a daily decision to give up my life for God, who has given up so much more for me.

It is all in His hands.

Every.

Single.

Thing.

-jmah

Lord,
My future is in Your hands. Let my hands do what You want, my feet go where You want. Use me as You desire without my wants getting in the way. I thank You that I can be assured that You have things in store for me and that my life isn't for nothing. I give it all up to You. In the midst of all of this, You alone know what has happened, what is unfolding and what is to come. I pray for peace and stillness of my heart and mind as You let Your will be done. You are the sovereign Lord, the only one worthy of praise.
Amen

UPDATE ON WORK!

STUDY AGENDA:
+Biology
-HBonline work + preprac quiz CHECK! I skimmed some of the material, but its so TEDIOUS!
-Biology report. Fix it up up up up up up. About to...
-Biology presentation Tomorrow with group mates =)
+Bioethics Actually, all three dot points are reliant on the previous... so, I'll start tomorrow
-Research
-Begin annotated bibliography
-Major essay
+Psychology Bottom priority right now
-SUMMARIZE FIRST THREE LECTURE SERIES!! D= (Not today)
+Math Second bottom priority
-HAH. Right. Like I study math. But no, seriously. I don't. I should and will. But not today.

Revived, refreshed and ready to take another week on.

I've decided to use part of my blog as a study accountability tool. If you choose to read it, you'll either see me epic fail my studies or me getting on top of things. I hope for the latter.

Well! It's the long weekend and I just sent in my (overdue) bioethics essay! Whoo! I feel good.

Since the last time I blogged, not much has happened. Oh! I'm hoping to go back to Melb-melb next weekend, but my parents don't have a consensus. =_= So I'm waiting the maternal unit to reply in the affirmative. *sigh* until then I won't know.

Today, I went to church in the morning, but I missed my bus stop so ended up at the other end of the street at some park. Luckily I have a map app on my touch, so I could find my way back! Whew. I was a tad late, but it was all good.

Now I'm at uni (I KNOW! ON A SUNDAY!), waiting outside a library for it to open in like 11 minutes. I'm at uni, 'cause I don't like studying at home and 'cause I'm going out later and uni is closer to North Sydney than home.

I'm excited because I may have a living arrangement! Hopefully it works out. And thanks for miss Tang =)

I hope all of you have a wonderful long weekend, enjoy the weather and eat healthy. =)

-jmah

STUDY AGENDA:
+Biology
-HBonline work + preprac quiz
-Biology report. Fix it up up up up up up.
+Bioethics
-Major essay
-Research
-Begin annotated bibliography
+Psychology
-SUMMARIZE FIRST THREE LECTURE SERIES!! D= (Not today)
+Math
-HAH. Right. Like I study math. But no, seriously. I don't. I should and will. But not today.


HOLY CRAP. My laptop's battery is going to die in an hour, how the heck am I supposed to study?! Uni library computers... You're mine.

Post-mortem

Well, I finished my report at around 4:30 last night.

And now its 4:06AM of Monday night/Tuesday morning and I just finished studying up math. BUT I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED MY BIOETHICS READINGS/RESPONSE! ARGH.

So I resorted to emailing my tutor saying that I won't be able to hand it in tomorrow, and if I could possibly get a day or two extra, if not, what are the penalties and whether she will still accept it late. =(

I'm going to bed.

3 nights in a row. UGH. Tomorrow's not gonna be any better if she gives me another day. But at least after that, I'll be freed up a bit more. *sigh*

Procrastination.

-jmah

SOTM:
Jesus Culture - Your Love Never Fails
Michael Morrow - We Belong to the Day

Quick quick quick quick post.

So the week of hell (not literally) begins.

Monday:
-Human Biology report draft due (currently completed 0%)

Tuesday:
-Bioethics worksheet 2 due (-60%, assuming that every reading is worth 30%. That's right. I'm behind)
-Differential Calculus mid-sem (worth 15%, studied around....20% of topics. Or at least I'd like to think that I've studied around 20%...)

Wednesday:
NOTHING DUE. Just cramming.

Thursday:
Also nothing due? Odd.

Friday:
-Human Biology test (-100%, considering I barely know anything and am behind on 4 weeks of online modules)

Ho-flying-fudgecakes-from-France.

The week after I have an annotated bibliography due for bioethics which is a part of my major essay. HO-CRAP. That just means more readings that I have to do this week, in the midst of all that crap.

Sorry, don't have much to say apart from that, because I can't really think about much else. Ugh.

Talk about trying to honor God in my studies =\ NOT EASY. Rargh. I will get a move on.

Oh and those of you who haven't read my facebook status, this is what happened last night while I attempted to study. So, I was doing some prep readings to write my report for biology and I fall asleep. WITH A HIGHLIGHTER IN MY HAND. I wake up with purple patches on my body and on the bed sheets. Rawrgh. At least none on my face. Hmmm. Yes. Oh, and I woke up at 8 realizing that it's light out and that my lights and my glasses were still on.... took glasses off and turned the lights off and went back to sleep. Missed church. ._.;; Went to Gracepoint in the evening though. After a quite unproductive study session in the library.

OH! Talking about the library. I saw this asian mother fully asian-parent-bashing her kid, because he didn't write a good err... "essay", if you like. I was like, GEEZ. GIVE HIM A BREAK! HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S IN YEAR 6 OR SOMETHING... HIS LIFE DOESN'T DEPEND ON WHAT YOU THINK OF HOW HE WRITES! SO WHAT IF HE WANTS TO WRITE ABOUT THE GRANDPA OF THE MAIN CHARACTER?! WHO ARE YOU TO NOT LET HIM BORROW BOOKS FROM THE LIBRARY?! Psh. I felt soooo sorry for him... Got a major thrashing in the library, and after his mom just went back to reading the paper, while continuing to throw random comments about how shit his writing is and how its impossible to justify any good in it. Talk about ENCOURAGEMENT.

OKAY. This quick quick quick quick quick post is getting longer and longer, and I think it has just become procrastination. LOVEYOUALLTOBITS.

-jmah

EDIT:
Sorry, I lied about my Human Biology report. I had one word down... "Introduction" =) And I had numbered pages and a header (which I don't think I need) WHOO.........