Friends, the future and what it may hold...

This is extremely impromptu, but I'm gonna blog about some of my future plans and some of the decision-making factors involved as well as my reasons.

As some of you would know, I plan to do some sort of health science degree, ultimately medicine, but I really don't know (By the by, I say that way too much). Since around year 8 I've wanted to become a doctor, but then as I thought about it over the years I was trying to figure out a few things. First of all, why do I want to be a doctor? Second, am I even cut out to be a doctor?

So I'm still in that in-between, but I reckon that I would enjoy medicine... it's interesting and would be fun. I also like being able to help people, but that answer/reason is too much of a damn cliché. I don't know whether TV is an influence on my decision. Just putting it out there, but I absolutely love Grey's as well as House. But when I watch the shows I like the organization more than anything. I guess I love that in any field... I love the break down of structures like a hospital or a military office. Who knows, maybe I should do something in management or organization.

I did work experience with a surgeon and I got to see a surgery first hand. I guess that didn't really phase me. The smell is horrid, but I survived. I even ate right after. But like, do I really want to cut people up and stick metal objects into them? I don't know (there I go again), maybe I do. But I've never really done it, so I can't say yet. That's where I am. So I wanna try it. Medicine, I mean. I don't know about any other choice.

Oh, except languages. I love languages and cultures and people. I would love to become an interpreter, but I can do that anyways even if I did medicine. OH! And that's another thing. I think I have this inbuilt thing that makes me want to do MORE MORE MORE! For example, double degrees, honours, concurrent diplomas, etc etc. Notice all of these are 'accreditation for acheivement'. What do they really mean? How much do they mean to me? I hope not THAT much. >.< style="font-weight: bold;">UNI
Columbia
Monash
UNSW

COURSE
Med/Arts
Emergency Health/Nursing
Physiotherapy
Medicine
Arts

With the universities, it's strange, 'cause 2 out of 3 of them are NOT in Melbourne. Which means I would have to move. I have a 1/3 chance of staying in Melbourne, assuming that I go to only one of the three. And if I go to Monash, my first course preference that Monash offers is Emergency Health/Nursing (note again that this is a double degree??)

So what's with all the possible moving? Well, I don't think I'm too bad with the moving part. But it's the friends that I leave behind. Mostly my church here. It's something that I don't want to lose, and I'm afraid, despite all the promises of reunion and whatnot, that I'll lose what I have if I leave. I've been through moves before and I understand that people MOVE ON, but thats the thing. Do I want to move on in my own direction? Or do I want to keep these friends? It's not so much a toss up of WHICH, but it's just that it's very hard to keep both.

What does Columbia have in store for me? Two of my closest friends are trying to get into Columbia, and I think it would be freaking awesome if I managed to scrape in with them. And these are friends I haven't seen for a long time. These friends made such a big impact on my life, even though we are such different people, if it weren't for them, I think I would seriously be a very torn, broken, confused (more so than now) person. But that's a story for another time.

UNSW? All it has is a dream-come-true degree! Medicine/Arts?! That means possibility for language studies and exchanges DURING a medicine degree! Awesome or what? Downside: I have to move. I have to get in. Ouch.

Okay, I can't really be bothered writing much else at the moment. Not in a very good mood, and I don't really know why. My brother threw my cat on me and I punched him. I think it's just 'cause it's him that pisses me off.

-jmah-